Tuesday, September 20, 2005

dark

i’m a mess.

 

not that my day ever started out fine.

 

well it used to…

back when i still believed in the unbelievable.

 

that smile…

i would give anything to have him smile that smile at me again…

 

oh, how lethal remembering could be!

 

it hurts.

like it does now…

 

and it’s almost physical, this hurting.

like a twisting pang from the stomach to the heart…

 

biting. raw.

 

then it fades…

but not the self-loathing.

 

then “if only’s” flood.

 

suffocating.

choking.

sickly sweet.

4 comments:

Nicole Bataclan said...

i like this ;-)

LoLa AA said...

thanks nicole =D
... and happy (belated) birthday!

Nicole Bataclan said...

thank you dear! I like your blog... they're really fun! ;-)

have a nice day! babooooousH!

LoLa AA said...

thank you! have a fab day... =)